Hey y’all, it’s been a crazy and tough last couple months! I may have told y’all in my last blog (which was a while back gah I am sorry y’all it’s been wild!), but if not I FINALLY got a job! I work at the Child Development Center here in Fort Rucker. It’s been pretty challenging so far, but definitely rewarding. Let’s just say I have been screamed at, kicked, punched, and even pinched by the kiddos I take care of, but thankfully the super sweet kids make up for all of the difficult ones. It’s been humbling, but it’s teaching me so much about infants, pre-toddlers, and pre-schoolers! It makes me really excited to have my own, hopefully someday soon:) Although, on the days that are extra hard, sometimes I am like “alright I don’t think I am quite ready yet”, haha! 

Meanwhile, Nick has been working so insanely hard in flight school. This common core season has been really difficult for both of us. For me it’s been a whole new kind of difficult. It sort of reminds me of when he was in army boot camp, but instead he’s around. I am not really able to talk to him that much, or hang out with him until he’s done doing all his studying and homework. It’s been extremely tough because it has made it SO hard for us to connect, especially now that I have a full-time job. So right now it’s just a rough season for both of us. 

I think I haven’t wanted to write because I haven’t been wanting to focus on the struggle. But it’s weird because when things are going well, I also don’t want to write because I feel like I don’t have anything good or interesting to write about! But lately I have realized that it doesn’t matter how you are doing; everything is important because it’s all part of the journey that God has for each and every one of us. 

It’s hard to find the time and even the motivation to do the things I used to love as well. With how much life wears me down, I often struggle with finding the strength to share my story or go after other goals. But regardless of any goal I have or have ever had, my goal to seek out the Lord has definitely been the hardest to achieve, and also the most important goal of them all. It’s on ongoing struggle, but somehow God is STILL faithful, and seeks me out first more often then not. 

Probably one of the most beautiful things that I have heard many times, but always forget is this: You are a poem that the Lord has written to himself. Each and everyone of us is a completely different but indescribably beautiful poem that the Lord loves unconditionally, and has created for His glory. Sometimes I wonder what my poem is to the Lord. I wish I knew so I could tattoo it to myself and constantly look at it, and remind myself of God’s super specific and deep love for me. I am powerless to execute such a poem myself, however I would honestly love to give it a shot and share it with y’all sometime. I just think that is such a beautiful truth that we should always remember when we think about our personal relationship with the Lord. It can completely change the way we love the Lord.

During this season, spending time with the Lord has been hard. Life is always shoving it’s way to the front of my view. It’s even harder to bond with Nick these days. But I am always having to remind myself that 1. The Lord is faithful, and 2. The Lord’s love shows itself in everything regardless of where you’re at if you have a true relationship with the Lord. The Lord always comes through, no matter where you are at, because his love is truly unconditional. 

I ll quote one of my favorite films  (as cheesy as it might be, it’s totally true!), A Walk to Remember: “His love (Jesus’s love) is like the wind. I can’t see it, but I can feel it.” The Lord doesn’t give up on you, even when you feel like you’re constantly giving up on the Lord. He knows the season I am in, and he knows the season your in, and He is there… right next to you. Reminding myself of that is so important, especially now when things feel so… all over the place and disconnected. But to those of y’all that are where I am, or have been where I am, the key point to really all my blogs is that you are never alone! When you’re in the thick of life, God doesn’t leave you if you have a real relationship with Him. He always brings you back to him. And I would even argue that you CAN see the Lord subtly or majorly working in your everyday life.

For me, the smallest things are some of the most beautiful reminders of his love, especially when the day has been SO rough. I challenge y’all to notice the small (or big) reminders of God’s love in your life, and share them with me in the comments:) I would LOVE to hear how the Lord is working and reminding y’all of His love for you in your lives. Once again thank you all for reading my humble blog, and for supporting me in my crazy military spouse journey. I love y’all, and I am excited to share more with y’all (sooner than later!) in the near future:)